Photo by Michelle Fleur
"What's it like to live with Bipolar?" - someone asked.
After being diagnosed with bipolar, I could tell you all the different sorts of emotions I faced during that short time after being diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder Type I when I was in the Mental Health ward. Self-pity had also overwhelmed me. I asked God, "Why me again?" and, "What have I done now, God?". But I continued to find and muster up all the strength to face every single day, no matter how hard it was, and I learnt there are three main things I learnt about having Bipolar:
There is hope for the future
Taking risks and opening myself up to new opportunities to rebuild my future is one of the biggest
There is a chance of recovering
I am no doctor or medical professional, but if I believe I will recover; I will recover. I believe God placed me on this Earth for a purpose. Not to take everything that gets given to me, but to give back as much as I can through my suffering. It is worth all the pain. It is for the sake of telling my story and help as many people I can through my work.
There is no more self-compassion
I wake up. I get dressed. I find jobs. I find courses to enrol in that suitable. No matter how hard it is. I don't always have my head in the clouds, and I am motivated by my suffering to even face it and do something about it everyday. I believe there are periods where people will be in the deepest, and darkest pits of Depression or so and I used to be one of them. I am tackling each of my life goals one at a time, I know I want to be successful. I no longer feel sorry for myself and not just sit there and do nothing about it. Life is what you make of it, even after a diagnosis of Bipolar Disorder Type I. So don't give up.