Blog

Category

Currently showing posts tagged faith

  • What It's Like To Continue 'Believing' After Rape For Me


    Photo by Suzanne Dang

    There were times I was angry at God for making me this way, for putting me on this journey, where those times I idolise my wounds of the past bringing coldness to bitterness to others at times, especially to myself. The self-hatred I went through and the shame and guilt after being raped by my previous partners. I knew I did not have to understand it all, as everyone knows life is not easy. Everyone goes through and experience things in a different way. For me, I went through a lot of emotions, shame, guilt and even the thought of revenge to overcome the hurt I faced.

    God continued to pour His Mercy and Grace over me, despite my challenges.

    He brought me to the deepest and darkest pits of Depression, so I can find him with a whole, genuine heart and seek Him. I can't remember the number of times I cried trying to seek Him, even though he didn't respond at all times, but when He did - it was loud and clear. The tears were more than anything, tears of joy. 

    Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door and will be opened to you. ~ Matthew 7:7